Monday, March 12, 2012
The end of a love/hate relationship.
I have decided it is time for me to stop breastfeeding, and it is so bittersweet. The hate part mainly refers to when I first started breastfeeding. I am not going to lie, it is one of the hardest things I have ever done. It tested my patience more than ever, but it didn't take long for me to love it. Even though the beginning started out very rough, I will cherish the special moments and bond of nursing forever. I always thought it would be such a liberating feeling when I decided to stop breastfeeding, but I am really sad about it. We always joke that Hudson is going to be a "boob man", because that child LOVES to nurse. I think he is going to have just as hard of a time weaning as his mama. I told myself when I started if I could make it six months I would feel like I was successful at it, we are a week shy of him being six months old. A lot of my friends and family probably think I am crazy because I have been so torn up about when to quit, if you are/have been a nursing mom you probably completely understand. The final straw came last week as we hit a warm spell, and everything that spring has to offer came to life, along with my allergies. I have really bad allergies, and have been feeling bad for a few weeks now. I cannot take my allergy meds while nursing, because my milk will dry up. I tried to tough it out, but mother nature is relentless, and it was taking a toll on me. I am going to continue to nurse first thing in the morning, and in the afternoon as long as my milk lasts, but I am no longer going to nurse at night or pump during the day. I am hoping one positive thing will be his sleeping habits, he is so attached to nursing at night a lot of times he used it as a pacifier. Once I get him weaned at night I hope he will start sleeping through the night, or go longer stretches, wishful thinking right? If any of you have any advice/suggestions about weaning I would greatly appreciate it.