BUT WE ARE EXPECTING!!!!
Whew it feels so good to finally be able to share our big news!! I feel like I have been walking around on eggshells and busting at the seams with excitement for the past few months.
I am sure some of you are wondering about the title, so let me explain. Luke and I stopped preventing around the end of October beginning of November, and thought at the end of the summer we would start actively trying. Most people I have ever known to get pregnant have had to track temp, ovulation, etc., plus it took my sister a year to get pregnant and my mom three years, so I just assumed it would take me a while as well. Well I was wrong.......I am very bad at keeping up with my cycle and I could not remember the last time I had it, so on Monday January 17th I took a test just as precaution. I think I can honestly say when it popped up "pregnant" within seconds it was the biggest shock of my life! I never in my wildest dreams thought I was pregnant. My mom has always told me you know when you are pregnant, not to mention I wasn't having any symptoms, so I was for sure I wasn't I was just going to take the test to make sure. As soon as we found out I immediately started crying, and I am not going to lie they were not tears of joy. Even though I knew it was a possibility I just did not feel like I was ready. I had so many things going through my mind, and I was terrified. We went to my moms and after some comforting from her I realized everything was going to be fine. I think or at least I hope the initial shock is pretty normal, but I am sure it is not the reaction all people have when they find out they are expecting. It was kind of ironic because I had just talked to my friend Jenny that same day, and she told me that her and her husband were going to adopt, because they were unable to have a baby. At that moment everything changed for me, I realized what a blessing it was for me to be able to have a baby and there is no way I could ever be upset about it. I called the doctor the next day, and since I wasn't exactly sure when I had my last cycle they scheduled me to come in three weeks later. At my first appointment I was 8 weeks and she said everything looked great! I will be thirteen weeks Monday, and my due date is September 12th!
Luke and I could not be happier about having a baby, and feel so blessed to have so many people around us that love and support us. We are probably not as financially stable as we would like to be or done all the things we thought we would do before having kids, but we are perfectly fine with that. My parents have always told me that if you wait to be prepared for kids you will never have them, because there is nothing that can prepare you for it. However any and all advice form other moms would be greatly appreciated. I am really excited to be able to share this next chapter in our lives with you all, and I am going to try my best to update every week.