Counting down the days....

It is hard to believe we are just a short time away from being a family of four.  I go  to the Dr this afternoon, so I will attempt to do my 38 week post tomorrow.  I am not a super sentimental mom.  I don't mean that in a bad way, I just feel like every milestone we reach I am proud.  Being a parent is hard, and as Hudson gets older I love seeing him develop into a little boy.  I really don't miss him being a baby, or get sad about him growing up.....that was until the last few weeks.  I have been super sappy about Hudson no longer being my only baby, and really attached to him.  Normally by bedtime I am ready to wave my white flag, and enjoy a few moments of adult time.  It all started a few weeks ago when I was going through all of Hudson's clothes to see what we could use for Sullivan.  Going back through all of his tiny clothes made waves of emotion come over me.  I went back to him being a baby, and missed it.  I am sure this is all hormonal, but I have been trying to soak up every single moment with him, and hold him a little tighter.  His bedtime has been a little later, and I linger in his room a little longer.  I don't get frustrated when he gets in bed with us every.single.night.  Instead I roll over, curl up against him, and hold him tight.  I know this time is precious, and I don't want to take it for granted.  I worry about Hudson feeling left out, and how he will adjust to having a baby brother.  I know it will be an adjustment for ALL of us,but Luke and I can deal with it.  I would never want Hudson to feel like he is being put on the back burner.  I know we will all adjust eventually, and they will grow up being so close, but in the meantime the mom in me can't help but worry.  I have really tried to focus on Hudson rather than being anxious about Sullivan's arrival.  We have been going on lots of mommy/Hudson dates, and enjoying the weather.

We had a family day at the farm this past Saturday.

 It was so nice on Sunday too, so we went to a new park by our house to burn off some energy, and soak up the sun.

 After the park my "homie" helped me clip coupons....aka get them all out of order.

 The weather was still beautiful here in Nashville on Monday, so we went on a yogurt date. 

This child makes my heart smile.  He is one of a kind, and keeps us all laughing.  I can't imagine loving something else as much as I do him, but I think I will understand when I hold his baby brother for the first time.