39 & 40 Weeks

Hello there friends, I am still here....and pregnant.  I am not going to lie I was a little down in the dumps last week, so I missed my 39 week post.  I thought it would be better just to wait and combine the two weeks, and let you all know how we have been doing.  I am really hoping this is the last prego post you all see from me, because I am more than ready to meet my little man. 

I think I will just fill you in on what has been going on, rather than my usual weekly post.  I have been having contractions for about a week and a half now, and I was really convinced that I would have made progress, but when I went to the Dr last Wednesday, I am still 3/4 thinned out and dilated to a two.  I was so bummed to hear that I had not made any progress, because I really felt like I had after counting contractions literally ALL labor day weekend.  I have tried to ignore them because I now know it is just false labor.  I have had several days that I thought I would for sure go into labor, but unfortunately I have a stubborn little boy on my hands.  I feel like I have tried all the old wives tales I have read about, but none of them seem to work.  I want him to come when he is ready, but I am hoping that is before the 19th when I am scheduled to be induced.  I often read about people getting a burst of energy when they go into labor, so when I woke up yesterday morning at 6:30 and cleaned my entire house I was for sure I would have him last night.  I was in a lot of pain yesterday, and I could barely stand up straight by the end of the day.  I am trying to be extremely patient, but I get more and more anxious as each day passes.  Sleeping has become a thing of the past, I don't know if its from being uncomfortable or my anxiety.  I start to think that I am so ready for him to be here, and then when I feel like it could happen I get so scared I start to back track those feelings.  I worry so much about something being wrong with him once he is here that sometimes I feel OK with him staying in my belly where it is safe.

I am so fortunate to work for my dad, because he has been really flexible with my schedule, in fact he told me I didn't have to work anymore.  I still went into work for at least 1/2 days last week, because I could not just sit around the house waiting any longer.  It was kind of nice to have some sense of routine and normalcy after being on "baby watch" all labor day weekend.  I think I will just play it by ear this week and see how I feel as far as work goes, I will probably go in for little bit each day to keep from going stir crazy.  

My Dr stripped my membranes last week, and I thought that would speed the process up, but here we are the night before my due date, and no baby.  Tomorrow is a full moon, and a lot of people are convinced he will come by tomorrow night......I am not entirely convinced.  I feel like I will "know" when it is coming, but I have felt like that several times, and I don't feel like that at all tonight.  Luke has had my suitcase in the car for two weeks....he is more prepared than I am for this baby.  I think it is so cute how excited he is about having a baby, and I have no doubt he will be a wonderful father.  We have spent a lot of quality time together these last few weeks since we are about to be a family of three, so that has been nice.  I usually spend most of my day at my moms when I get off work, because I am terrified of being alone when I go into labor....I am kind of a baby.

I have been watching 9/11 coverage all day, and my heart aches for the victims families.  Seeing the kids that don't remember or never met their parents tears me up the most.  I pray for our troops that are still fighting the war that was started because of the events that happened that day.  I wish our country would continue to be as united as we all were the days following the terrorists attacks, I felt that today. 

I just read back over this post and I realize that it is completely random, but I am all over the place these days.  I am already in my pajamas so I will post a picture tomorrow, I hope everyone has a great week!