Sunday, March 30, 2014

Tomorrow.....

Well here we are. Still pregnant. I never imagined we would be here a few weeks ago. We are being induced at 6am tomorrow morning. It brings such mixed emotions. I am more than ready to meet my sweet baby, and terrified at the same time. I think being induced gives you time to have anxiety about labor, and worry about every little thing. Either way we are meeting are baby tomorrow, and could not be happier. We really appreciate everyone's love and support! 

Sullivan, 
We have waited for what seems like forever to meet you, and I cannot wait to hold you in my arms. You already have so many people that love and care about you. Your big brother has no clue what is going on, but I know he is going to love you so much.  I pray that you are prepared for your big journey tomorrow, and we have a smooth delivery.

Love , 
Mommy, Daddy and Big Brother. 

Thursday, March 20, 2014

39 Weeks

I was 39 weeks pregnant on Tuesday.  I had my Dr appointment yesterday.  I have been in LOTS of pain the past week.  Lots of contractions, back ache, soreness, and just overall not feeling great.  I officially feel like I have hit the "miserable" wall.  It is crazy to me how the last few weeks of pregnancy can feel like eternity.  Every single night I think "it could happen tonight."  The night before last I was up puking at 11.  It was not fun.  Some nights I pray I don't go into labor, because I don't have the energy to push a baby out.  I am so tired of washing my hair and shaving my legs ha ha.  Those of you who have had a baby probably understand the feeling.  You get up everyday, and spend extra energy getting yourself cleaned up and looking presentable on the off chance you could go into labor.  Luke makes fun of me for taking so many showers a day.  I quickly explained to him that if there was a chance an army of people could be all up in his  private parts that day he would want to make sure he was very well cleansed too. So, back to my appointment yesterday.  I was certain I had made progress with all of the pain I have been having.  After checking me she said I was still at a two and 50% effaced.  I was deflated.  I was so frustrated, and on the verge of tears.  Thank goodness I did not do this post yesterday or it would have had a much different tune.  After feeling emotionally and physically drained yesterday, I said lots of prayers and went to bed early.  I had the best nights sleep I have had in a week, and woke up feeling so much better.  I feel less anxious about when Sullivan will be here. and have a much better attitude.  We set my induction date for March 31st, and I know he will be here no matter what in less than two weeks.  I am going to enjoy these last days of being pregnant, and not focus on going into labor.  I am going to get a pedicure this weekend, go to a baby shower, and spend the rest of my time relaxing.  I know this is the calm before the storm and I am going to try to focus on resting up.  Thank goodness my dad is really understanding, and I am working as much or as little as possible at this point.  I really really hope its not just the good nights sleep and I can maintain this attitude for the next week and a half.  I cannot express how much I appreciate all the support I receive from friends and family checking in on me.  It means so much that so many people already care so much about Sullivan.  Please continue to keep us in your prayers.  I will continue to keep you all posted.

Thursday, March 13, 2014

38 Weeks

I had my 38 week check up yesterday, and Sullivan is still hanging in there.  Literally.  When she checked me at 36 weeks I was dilated to a one, and not effaced yet.  Last week I went.....same thing.  Any of you who have been pregnant know just how frustrating it is when you do not make any progress.  I have been in A LOT of pain this past week.  I really can't even pinpoint what the pain is.  I know it is something I never experienced with Hudson.  I never went into labor on my own with Hudson, so I really don't know what to expect.  I just know that my sister says I will "KNOW"  when it is real labor.  I have felt lots of pressure, back pain, period like cramping, and overall feeling yucky.  I have had some really bad days that I thought I could never make it another day, and I have had days where I have felt like I can hang in there a little longer.  I always feel really good in the mornings, but as the day progresses the pain gets worse.  I just chalk it all up to being my second pregnancy, and my body prepping for labor. That brings us to yesterday.  I was going to be really shocked if I had not made any progress.  Luckily I have, and did not have a meltdown on my doctor.  After checking me she said I was dilated to a two, and 50% effaced.  Thank you Jesus!  I wasn't expecting anything huge, but some progress is better than nothing.  She also said that his head has dropped, which is also good progress.  A lot of people (myself included) are shocked that I am not progressing faster considering how much I have worked out my entire pregnancy.  This just goes to show you cannot do anything to speed this process up.  I tried all the wives tales with Hudson, and nothing worked.  It is all up to the baby, and God's plan.  I have very strong feelings about not being induced unless I have to be, so I ask that everyone pray we go into labor on our own in the next two weeks.  Here are the usual updates for the week:

Weight: I lost a pound this week, so  we are back at 21lbs.  I have been playing with two pounds for about a month now.  Hopefully this is where I stay until I deliver.   

Sleep: As I told my mom this morning......I am sleeping as well as someone 38 weeks pregnant can.  I have been screwed up with the time change this week, and feeling a little more tired.

Food/Eating: I have been really nauseous the past few weeks.  I am not sure if it is from sinus congestion, or just third trimester nausea.  I have not had much of an appetite, which is probably why my weight is up and down.

Movement: He is still pretty active, which is another indicator that we are not going into labor anytime soon.  His movements are painful. Poor thing still gets the hiccups all the time.  A lot of times I feel sore by the afternoon from him moving around so much.  I am really trying to savor it, because it is one of my favorite parts of being pregnant.  I know I will miss it once I have him.

Looking Forward To: Other than the obvious, I have a mani/pedi planned for this weekend.  I got my hair done yesterday, so I will be nice and pampered by the time he gets here.


Here we are today.  I officially have the swollen face that every woman gets at the end of pregnancy.  Whenever I see someone at that point I think "yep, she is at the miserable stage."


Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Counting down the days....

It is hard to believe we are just a short time away from being a family of four.  I go  to the Dr this afternoon, so I will attempt to do my 38 week post tomorrow.  I am not a super sentimental mom.  I don't mean that in a bad way, I just feel like every milestone we reach I am proud.  Being a parent is hard, and as Hudson gets older I love seeing him develop into a little boy.  I really don't miss him being a baby, or get sad about him growing up.....that was until the last few weeks.  I have been super sappy about Hudson no longer being my only baby, and really attached to him.  Normally by bedtime I am ready to wave my white flag, and enjoy a few moments of adult time.  It all started a few weeks ago when I was going through all of Hudson's clothes to see what we could use for Sullivan.  Going back through all of his tiny clothes made waves of emotion come over me.  I went back to him being a baby, and missed it.  I am sure this is all hormonal, but I have been trying to soak up every single moment with him, and hold him a little tighter.  His bedtime has been a little later, and I linger in his room a little longer.  I don't get frustrated when he gets in bed with us every.single.night.  Instead I roll over, curl up against him, and hold him tight.  I know this time is precious, and I don't want to take it for granted.  I worry about Hudson feeling left out, and how he will adjust to having a baby brother.  I know it will be an adjustment for ALL of us,but Luke and I can deal with it.  I would never want Hudson to feel like he is being put on the back burner.  I know we will all adjust eventually, and they will grow up being so close, but in the meantime the mom in me can't help but worry.  I have really tried to focus on Hudson rather than being anxious about Sullivan's arrival.  We have been going on lots of mommy/Hudson dates, and enjoying the weather.


We had a family day at the farm this past Saturday.




 It was so nice on Sunday too, so we went to a new park by our house to burn off some energy, and soak up the sun.

 After the park my "homie" helped me clip coupons....aka get them all out of order.


 The weather was still beautiful here in Nashville on Monday, so we went on a yogurt date. 



This child makes my heart smile.  He is one of a kind, and keeps us all laughing.  I can't imagine loving something else as much as I do him, but I think I will understand when I hold his baby brother for the first time.